Thursday, 7 February 2013

what would we do without friends ?


Where would we be without our friends .........


I just want to thank Sue & Sarah for there support over  the past weeks of me being stuck in bed  and the difficult time i had . No matter how tired or yukki they may feel too , they are always there for me, and they will never know how much this means . I truly believe we share a unique circle of friendship . Especially dear Sue, we are like the sisters we never knew :-)


Tues and Wednesday have been really good for me, i managed to go out both days and had such a lovely time with Colin and my son Jamie , shopping in Edinburgh yesterday , bought some new things for the house , Tuesday was just a short day out in town but its been so long since i breathed fresh air and seen society that it was a lovely treat , as well as spending quality time with my husband Colin :-)

Today i'm tired , but i managed a few chores which believe me is a new thing for me and makes me feel sooooooooooooooooooooooooo good to be able to do things no matter how small the task . Tomorrow we are going to visit my daughter Angela and our grandchildren Toni & Ryan , i'm looking forward to seeing them, we don't see them enough .


To all who read my blog, I hope that your day has been good, and you have managed one positive achievement even if it is only to get out of bed for a little while , i remember only too well the times i was bedridden and even yet i have episodes when i just sleep and sleep 


hugs , Kiara x

Sunday, 3 February 2013

frustrated

i've been feeling so ill for what feels like an eternity now but in reality it s only over  a week now, i want to constantly sleep and the pain i have suffered has been feeling has been  intolerable.The out of hours doctor was called out to me twice on two separate evenings and  both giving me separate medications  . I feel done in and find things very difficult to cope with, My eyes are bleary and so its difficult to focus , my balance is awful and i am very unsteady on my feet , falling backwards a alot, my memory is bad  my speech is very incoherent at times i know that there is nothing i can do about this except that as time goes by it will get better hope for a better day tomorrow where i will feel more normal, as today i'm hoping all this is due to me coming off my Gabapentin, we will see. My doctor is queueing that i have a virus , but also the possibility i'm having side effects to the meds he put me on are having side effects  ( LORAZEPAM AND DIHYDRO-CODEINE  I've had to re-read this entry twice to make corrections on my mistakes and spellings and errors . 

I feel VERY frustrated

hugs


Kira x

Wednesday, 23 January 2013

Some Fibromyalgia info ( American medical studies)


Is gabapentin (Neurontin, others) an effective fibromyalgia treatment?

Answer

from Ann Vincent, M.D.
Only one high-quality clinical trial has looked at gabapentin (Neurontin, others) as a fibromyalgia treatment. In that study, the drug reduced participants' reported pain, fatigue and sleep disruption more effectively than did a placebo.
Gabapentin has not been approved by the Food and Drug Administration (FDA) for the treatment of fibromyalgia, although some doctors may prescribe it off-label for such use. The FDA has, however, approved a similar drug — pregabalin (Lyrica) — for fibromyalgia treatment.
Gabapentin and pregabalin were originally approved to treat certain types of epilepsy and nerve pain. Both drugs work by limiting the release of pain-communicating chemicals by nerve cells in the brain and spinal cord.
Because gabapentin is available in generic form, it may be less expensive than pregabalin. But you have to take gabapentin three or four times a day, which makes it less convenient than pregabalin, taken in two daily doses. The most common side effects of both drugs are dizziness and drowsiness.

Is fibromyalgia hereditary?

Answer

from Connie Luedtke, R.N.
Fibromyalgia isn't passed directly from parents to children the way diseases such as cystic fibrosis and hemophilia are. But family studies have found that the odds of having fibromyalgia are several times higher in the immediate families of people with fibromyalgia than in families in which no one has fibromyalgia. These observations suggest that heredity is a factor in causing fibromyalgia.
In fact, studies of DNA from family members of people with fibromyalgia and chronic pain syndromes have turned up a number of genes that could help explain why these disorders seem to run in families. Each of these genes plays a role in your nervous system's response to things that hurt, such as pressure and heat. Some of the same genes are also associated with depression and anxiety, which may be the reason why certain antidepressant medications help reduce fibromyalgia symptoms.
Researchers are now trying to connect differences in individuals' pain thresholds to particular variants of specific genes. A variant of the gene that determines how efficiently nerve cells recycle the neurotransmitter serotonin has already been correlated with heightened pain sensitivity.

I have fibromyalgia. Whenever my rheumatologist does blood tests, I'm told that I have elevated ESR and CRP levels. What's the significance of these test results?

Answer

from April Chang-Miller, M.D.
An elevated erythrocyte sedimentation rate (ESR) or a high level of C-reactive protein (CRP) in your blood may indicate inflammation somewhere in your body. However, it's not likely related to your fibromyalgia, since fibromyalgia isn't an inflammatory condition. Various conditions can cause elevated ESR and CRP levels, including:
  • Infection
  • Rheumatoid arthritis
  • Inflammatory bowel disease
  • Cardiovascular disease
  • Cancer
To better understand the clinical significance of your elevated ESR and CRP levels, consult your doctor.

Hypnosis For Fibromyalgia

The symptoms of fibromyalgia can sometimes be so painful that they prevent sufferers from going to work, attending school classes, or just managing their daily routines. Unfortunately, there is no cure available for fibromyalgia syndrome, so patients often resort to numerous different treatments to lessen the severity of their fibromyalgia symptoms. However, hypnosis is now emerging as one of the best alternative treatments available for fibromyalgia pain. The use of hypnosis has been proven to reduce pain symptoms and it has become a doctor-recommended treatment. If you are suffering from fibromyalgia pain symptoms, consider hypnosis as a treatment option.


Tuesday, 22 January 2013

I'm very tired today , slept til midday , but i feel i will need to go back to bed shortly i feel so tired. Its cold out so even if i could , i think to go out wouldn't be the best idea for me today . 

I've looked on line at various jewellery making kits and have decided to buy a few from ebay that will allow me to begin my new hobby ( you never know, i may even be quite good at it  :-) 

I hope that today is a good day for anyone who reads this , i'm sending you all a smile from my heart 

The joy of time is that its NOW , not a minute ago, not a minute forward - but now ,  its the now that we can't recapture. So live your life for every minute and cherish THE NOW in our lives.

Kira x

Monday, 21 January 2013

Sleep ... thoughts ... friends ...

i've slept alot this afternoon , wish it was a refreshing sleep rather than a sleep that leaves me even more tired. But hey, there is alot worse than me and i should be thankful for small mercies . My positive thought for today is not to look at things at pain value , rather look at things much deeper and find a way to be happy that i can actually get out of bed, for there was a time i couldn't even get out of bed.  I also should be thankful for my husband and friends who care about me and support me . I am going to try each day to find at least one positive thing in my life and share it with you .

I would like to design and make my own jewellery , this is achievable if i put my mind to it , and it will also be good for my concentration and motor skills 


To my friends who take time out to talk to me and help support me , your friendship is so special to me , you inspire me and you are forever in my heart. Life doesn't go by without it stresses for everyone and the fact that you lend me a shoulder to cry on means so very much to me . 

To my husband , thank-you from my heart for just being you and always by my side no matter what .

My pledge to you is that i will try to be a better person , and i will try to fight this illness with dignity and positivity , our eyes are the window to our soul, from which our inner beauty shines out , a gift often forgotten .


hugs, Kira x 

Sunday, 20 January 2013

Life

Life gets me down sometimes, it seems and feels to me like an ongoing battle, i have got to the point that my pain is too much to bare and i just don't know what to do any more . I'm sick and tired of taking pills that don't work, i'm sick and tired of feeling i am just being brushed aside at times, and i just want someone to help me . I would honestly appreciate if someone would get back to me with their story and their ways of coping. 

I've looked into the pain association but really its not for me , i would gladly go to something that was one-to-one based , but i'm not comfortable being in a group setting talking about my pain and my most vulnerable feelings .

Life , i want my life back, not necessarily how it was before, just life that will give me something to look forward to every morning when i wake up , just a day without pain . 


I feel for those around me, all they see is my miserable life , trying to cope with this is getting to me .


Kira x

Thursday, 17 January 2013

bad nite again !!!!!

I had such a bad nite last nite , so much pain, very intense . Its all getting me down that i feel i have reached my rock bottom again , I don't know how many times i have climbed back from this low . I feel at the moment i just can't go on, i wish that i could just run away - leave my pain behind me just for one day 

Desperately want help for my condition , its soul destroying and so difficult to remain positive .